Saturday, July 2, 2011


     Yesterday was a big change for me, I cut most of my hair off. I've never in my life had an even remotely short hair cut. My hair started to shed from the chemotherapy treatments, so I figured why not. I got so fed up with hair being everywhere. I had this attachment to my hair (or so I thought) because I'd had long hair all of my life but it was so simple to make the decision to cut it. It was something that I thought would make it easier for ME. Many people wanted me to wait, but I had to do this for me. I felt so at ease sitting in the chair as she chopped it off LOL. It was a good feeling especially because it was something that I've wanted to do for years but was afraid to do it. It will grow back even better after the treatments are done.

     Alot of times we go through life doing things (small and big) to make other people happy regardless of how we may feel about the decision or the outcome. That's not living your life, that's living life for others. We can't be afraid of change. Sometimes change means leaving your comfort zone. It may not feel good in the moment but what you do with those emotions is what decides which direction your change goes. Change is good, it's what we make out of the experience. It can me a negative change but if you turn your thoughts positive, it can create some beautiful things! We have to do things that make us happy as individuals and I feel like so many aspects of our lives will be happier and will have more positive outcomes.

Any change, even a change for the better, is always accompanied by drawbacks and discomforts.

     In my moments of clarity I see things in such a positive light now. I use to be one of those people that hated when other people were positive all the time. I would think, "they can't be positive about everything" but you really can. Positivity at all times (I'm human though, so I'm sure I'll slip here and there lol)  is part of my change and that one thing can make such a difference in other areas of my life. I want to live a happy life of change for myself and no one else, we can't always make others happy. Try CHANGE  and see how it works out for you.

“Sometimes it's the smallest decisions that can change your life forever.”

Janae' :)

Have a blessed 4th of July weekend!!!




  1. Janae' I applaud your courage and fortitude as you go through what others would break down at. But in the face of adversity you have the God-like strength and faith that we sit in church and read that God desires of us. I am inspired, amazed and impressed beyond words. It would be easy and fathomable to focus on just you, but it is very noble for you to reach out and witness to others. This is your witness, your testimony. And WHEN God brings you out of this, we can ALL shout VICTORY in the mighty name of Jesus. I will keep you in my prayers. I lost an aunt to breast cancer but ny grandma is a breast cancer survivor for almost 50 years so you got this. We claim it together.

  2. Wow Janae! That's awesome. You inspire me. Continue to be you. Love you Hun.

  3. Positivity is new to me too as you know Sassy. But once ur truly open to it & welcome it whole-heartdly its a feeling like no other. It also affects the way others respond to you, hence you put out good vibes & get them in return.
    Old friends who are NOT accustomed to the new me are somewhat cynical but it takes time for them to get used to the new you & accept the new you for who you are. It's a learning curve for every1.
    U are gorgeous & super hot with long flowing locks or short shiny curls, who cares?? I just love that you're sharing this with me & every1 else. You have no idea the affect you have had on my life & how often you come to mind - daily. You're truly phenomenal & God has a purpose for you & it's greatness!! You're already on your was Sassy!! Like you tell me - Keep pushin.
    Love you J!

  4. You are fearfully and beautifully made! Psalms 139!

  5. Still beautiful inside and out. After reading all of your posts I feel a def sense of ease that I did not feel before. I love your spirit and your encouragement reminds me of my grandma (rip mama) she was a fighter who neva let people feel bad for her despite everything she went thru. Keep being the solider you are God def has a great plan for you. Love u.